MERRY CHRISTMAS GUYS. I have bought myself a christmas present which is a ps3 as I felt like I should treat myself to something extravagant with my own money. Hehehe. Anyway, Christmas this year is shit - I'm working, its fucking hot and humid, and right now everything kind of sucks. This isn't what my post A's is supposed to be la fuck.

I chanced upon a revelation today. Sometimes, trying to care too much can backfire and hurt you where it hurts the most. Must I try not to care so much? After all, I guess I may be to some a meddlesome little motherfucker. I'm sick and tired of this shit. SOS pls. Fucking christmas. I wish I was back in Shanghai now - not in this fucked up place where I've been stuck in a fucking shitstorm with myself. Sometimes I think its my own damn fault that things turned out this way - for caring too much.